Saturday, December 01, 2007
I understand everyone has their own problems and we all try our best to solve it, or escape from the reality of all these. I do hope mine will be over soon. Its like having an atomic bomb close to you, one that will go off any time and cause drastic damage. I once told myself, someday, it'll all be fine, don't worry. But the process, is kinda hard we all know, as actions are harder when at the same time it's louder than words.
I have to keep my faith. God will bring those who believe through. I really want my mum to be fine. She's working so hard already, I do not want her to have other scary things on her mind, that keeps her afraid but yet she's unable to say it out. I understand. When I want to forget the past and start again, everything just repeats itself and I become disheartened. It's all because of ___. Sigh. I believe it will be fine, but sometimes in life, we have to cry and hug each other to keep holding on. Laysing, I can cry together with you next time. LOL.
School has been disastrous, with all the projects due within 1 week from now. CRS presentation, GGT report, OM & FOM report, OM & FOM presentations. Actually I do look forward to each project as I learn more from each project, but when everything piles up, we all get stressed isn't it? When its all over, we have the 2 weeks "holidays" to finish IDEAS CA3 (which I doubt we cannot finish before the holidays), and start to prepare for semestral examinations. And who said poly life is easy? It depends, really. Sure, you can slack all you want, but its your own choice and you bear the obvious consequences. Right now I finish my tutorials every week and I wanna study smart (hopefully), or else my GPA's gonna fall below 3 and I DO NOT ABSOLUTELY WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. So, let's all do our best then. What I do is what I get; I keep reminding myself.
I also do hope to complete each project with more and more confidence. Though some were really screwed up, be it my speaking skills, the ppt layout or other factors, I do hope when doing projects as a team we can speak out truthfully about how we really feel. I really get afraid of offending people sometimes if my words were too, I don't know, hurtful? Or anything that's negative. Sorry to anyone if I made you feel that way.
All the best, people.
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HOLIDAY PLAN:
- Revise all modules
- Exercise
- Sleep as long as I can.
7:55 PM endurance, risk and love
